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Traffic lights

By j jones

  I discovered last year that I'm neuro-diverse! There are great things about seeing the world in  a different way. My mind is both linear and abstract all at the same time. I'm creative and a bit random, but not random at all! I can look in the boot of a car and see in an instant if and how luggage is going to fit. My mind works full speed pretty much constantly which means I fit in huge amounts of thoughts in, in a small amount of time. 

 But then there are the negatives. One thing that has been a struggle for me, is to get from seeing a task that needs doing, to completing it. This has left me, many time, feeling like a bit of a failure! 

 Then a couple of weeks ago,  an amazing friend prayed, like the Bible says, for a renewal of my mind. And the Holy Spirit answered. 

 He explained to me that my mind had something like traffic lights going off. Getting laundry from dirty state, all the way to being in cupboards has had around 6 sets of traffic lights for me.

 Take off the clothes -🚦-

 Get laundry in the basket -🚦 - put washing in the machine - 🚦- hang washing up to dry -🚦- get washing in -🚦- put it to air -🚦- take it off the horse and fold -🚦-take to the right rooms -🚦- put away.  Actually, that's eight sets of "lights". For me, some of these lights are usually green. I've found it pretty easy to put the washing out once it's washed. Others, have almost always been red. I've had a "floordrobe" for as long as I can remember and getting clean stuff in my cupboards has almost been painful! It's embarrassing! I'm nearly 50 and still can't do a basic adulting task!

  But these traffic lights have gone! And it's amazing. I can go straight from seeing a dirty cup in the lounge and take it straight to the sink...no delay. I know it might sound silly, but to anyone who has a  "floordrobe,"  or a pile of unopened mail constantly on the worktop, it's huge! I can't believe how much easier day-to-day life is, and after all the years of being critical and frustrated about what I thought were my "short comings".  I'm hoping this will  increase my compassion for others too. If I had invisible "traffic lights" standing in my way, others probably do to.

 Shame and stigma is wanting me not to share this testimony, but I'm going to share anyway, with a loud THANK YOU JESUS!  


So if any of this is giving you a lightbulb moment, my prayer over you, is "Do it again Holy Spirit." 

And if you want to chat some more about this, feel free to send me a message. 

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